Little by little

Stardate 7^th may

We seem to have been unleashed to complete the rest of year one alone, well there’s help if we need it but I hope to work through and complete what’s required alone. I have been working through my previous lesson plans and seeing how they appear to have improved through the term. I feel I’m more confident in how to approach them , I also feel there easier to do this way the individual lesson plans seem much more relevant to how my classes actually work , the old way seemed to be largely a work of fiction and more a book keeping exercise . So surprisingly I seem to have learned something, who would have thought it. Reading back through my earliest entries my confidence in my own abilities has risen, I was always second guessing my own teaching style unsure if I was doing it right. I was working correctly just not reflecting it in my paper work. Once I started to break down and express what I actually do each day and recorded it appropriately it seemed more worth while. As I said the new lesson plans actually work as a tool for me to graphically and practically track learner’s progress and achievements, which can only be a good thing. I was so intimidated by the process of writing an assignment but so far touch wood they have been successful, I find them hard work but I can complete them with care and patience, and I find I’m relying less on others for assistance, I have always worked best with someone to bounce ideas of, is this ok how should I approach this, but this support structure hasn’t been as available recently and it has forced me to develop the skills to make myself do it, which I begrudgingly accept is a good thing, my office skills are much improved and I can now find my way around word fairly competently so I’ approaching happy. Next term we have a group project to manage, this concerns me, I don’t want to be lumbered with a group ill have to carry; equally I don’t want to hold another group back so I will be curious to see how we are divided up. Woo that sounds selfish and insecure and paranoid. I’m defensive about my personal time like to keep work and home time separate, I do compromise when I must, but I dislike meetings for meetings sake. This perhaps explains some of my apprehension about the field of cpd, If I’m learning something useful which I feel is valuable to me then great if it’s a wasted day listening to something largely irrelevant set to fill up the hours, then I feel like life is to short. I cured my pc today also it developed a fault, would shut down randomly, i eventually traced the problem to a bad networking driver, I diagnosed and cured this using the net as a research tool, this is profesional development, it took nearly a day to solve, but solve it I did. IT skills are important, they continue to improve