u cant tell what it is

Stardate 20 feb 08

So much work to do, am somewhat panicked by it all doubting my abilities. The teaching goes fine the academia well its scares me, I don’t know if I’m up to it and the only way to find out is to try. Perhaps even try and fail .Seems I have been filling in the wrong workshop plan form the one without a session review, I thought this was where I reviewed the session and reflected on problems and tried to reason solutions to improve my work, but it seems not. The lessons that I was most worried about was the learners designing their projects, my fear was I would end up doing it all for them. They assume I have some magical design powers as the teacher. I don’t but I have learned to be honest and critical, if its shit I will look at it and think its shit, why is it shit? Haha that’s reflective. It’s important to be honest in viewing you own work. Look at the window u have designed, does it look all squashed up does the elegant pre-Raphaelite woman look like Batman, and friends won’t tell you any of this. They go aww that looks lovely you’re so talented and watch you sink into failure for fear of insulting you’re sensitive artistic nature. As a teacher I have to be able to guide the learners and give an opinion push them forward suggest improvements, but ultimately remember its their project, if the window is going to look like a penis from 3 meters away should I tell them or not? (I didn’t btw bottled it).But getting back to the point the learners I was concerned about, would they draw anything would they learn anything XD they all arrived with near complete designs, which we spent the lesion making some final adjustments to.